Thank you. And it does.
I’m doing great but it is a process and learning to be kind to myself is part of that process.

Wow. This is really kind and affirming. I sometimes get anxiety around sharing too much. I do it anyway because it is important for me to get “me too” and feel less alone so this is very needed. Thank you.

Oh my gosh! I love their weird ass gourmet section.

I edited out the bit where I sit in the car for over 30 minutes after. I don’t do this often, only when I’m in the “in-between”. I like to take any small sliver of “okay” that presents itself and fling myself towards it. It’s my supplement to the meds and therapy.

If you’re able to, I suggest you go to your PCP and get blood work done. You might be anemic. I discovered that last week and the symptoms mirror each other so if both show up at once, they can be magnified.

I’m sorry to hear you’re not doing well.

It totally knocked me out and made me feel sluggish. I went through hell trying to find the right cocktail for me so I pretty much stick to what I know. There have been so many new advances in pharmaceuticals over the years but I cant go through that guinea pig phase again.

Same.
Eating well and avoiding certain stuff definitely helps me in general but it’s definitely not a cure.
And they always say it like you’ve never considered it; as if I wouldn’t be downward facing Jesus with sage in my ear stuffing kale in my mouth if it was just that easy.

*Mistaken for.
English is my second language.

Due to a blood disorder, I’m super sensitive to medication. Valium is way too strong and made me drowsy for almost 20 hours. Xanax and Klonopin are tried, tested and trusted.

And I feel the same way. These last 12 years have to be good for something.
Thank you once again. I’m sure someone reading this needed it.  

Thank you.

Oh absolutely.
I think we are both saying the same thing but from different angles. I apologize.
I just got really twitchy at the idea that I may have inadvertently implied that tai-chi was curing me up until that moment.
Not at all.

Been on it for about two years now. Was on clonopin before but started Xanax when the anxiety got too big and I needed faster results. I prefer Clonopin because of how it builds in your system. I’m actually going to speak to my doctor about going back next week.
Thanks for reading.

Also, “It’s all in your head” is meant to be sarcastic as it’s clear it has physical symptoms as well.

I was in no way implying that yoga was the “cure”. I’d be the first to say that it isn’t an option for anything. As stated, it’s something that I’ve recently learned that helps calm me when things are quiet and good. This story is a slice of life anecdote of something that happened last week. I’ve written extensively…

Fact.
Per the ending, I was just glad I made it to the car and didn’t wake up on the floor like the last two times it got as bad as I described above.
Thanks for reading.

Actually, it’s about POC who live with mental illness having permission to take a step back rather than be consumed by the tragedies that lead to anxiety and depression but thanks...

I’m a Black woman. I center Blackness.

And my problem with 9-10 for shopping and the gym is that I can always convince myself that if I wait that long, I might as well just go tomorrow. I’m the worst at self-motivation.

Thank you! I appreciate the support.

And yeah, I haven’t written a (non-commissioned) poem in a few years. I gravitated to long form essays and just kinda stayed there. Plus there are so many amazing poets out that say it much better and there’s no need for me to take up space. Plus I started getting really anxious…

It hits you at the oddest times.

Absolutely.
I’m lucky enough to be in a line of work that doesn’t put my employment at risk. It has cost me relationships and opportunities and other things but because I have a voice and a platform, I feel like I should be a loud advocate for those who can’t. Not everyone needs to take up that placard because of the…